Everything looks so impossible

Do you ever feel like God answers everyone else’s prayers but not yours?

Lately, everything looks so impossible. No matter how I look at my situation, God is the only One I can truly trust.

I’m trusting Him to provide both a family house and a new job. I admit I haven’t been consistent in my job search or even in prayer. Still, the desire to leave my current job has been on my mind for a long time. Some days, I feel like resigning immediately, but financial concerns keep me where I am.

My desire for a house started in December 2025. I’m specifically praying for a family house, even though I don’t meet the technical qualifications. Once I get married, my future partner’s income will also be considered, which could make things even more difficult financially. That’s why I’m praying for a house now, before marriage, so we can build a better future together.

But honestly, everything looks impossible.

The more time passes, the more impossible it seems. Looking only at the requirements and prices, I already know it doesn’t make sense. Still, I brought it to God because I believe He can make a way.

The houses I see now are far beyond my budget and often not even what I’m looking for. Yet I keep holding on to the belief that God can still provide.

God will provide.

That is my only hope, that the Lord can provide even when things seem impossible. Even when the waiting feels too long. Even when the process makes no sense to me. I want to trust that God can make a way where there seems to be no way.

Regarding my job, I’ve reached a point where I feel that if the Lord says “leave,” I will leave without hesitation. Honestly, I feel like He has already told me twice. I’ve even written my resignation letter and plan to submit it soon unless He clearly shows me otherwise.

Part of that readiness comes from exhaustion. I’m tired.

God answers everybody but me?

God answers my smaller prayers, but when it comes to bigger things, I sometimes wonder: is God being silent, or am I simply not listening?

I often focus on all the reasons why leaving wouldn’t make sense — resigning from a stressful job without knowing when another opportunity will come. Yet somehow, I still cling to this job because it was once an answered prayer. I think part of me believes that if something was once a blessing, it must remain one forever.

But maybe seasons change.

I’m at a point where I no longer want my dependence to be on my job, my salary, or my own understanding. I want my dependence to be on God alone. Even though my job sustains me financially, I know that when it’s time to move, it’s time to move.

I’ve left jobs twice before because I felt God leading me to, and He never abandoned me.

Still, I won’t lie — sometimes I compare myself to others. I see people moving into new jobs, new opportunities, and new seasons, even people who don’t seem to share my faith, and it stirs jealousy, confusion, and frustration in me.

But despite all the doubt, comparisons, frustration, and unanswered questions, I still choose to trust God.

There is no turning back.

Even when my prayers aren’t answered the way I expected, I choose to believe that God is still with me. That He will guide me, sustain me, and answer at the right time.

My dependence is no longer on certainty. It is on Him.

Be blessed, and stay blessed.