I quit my job

On the day that "I Want to Quit My Job, But..." was published, I sent my resignation letter. That blog was written between 2 and 4 weeks ago because I upload my blogs every two weeks. It's kind of comic that I quit on the same day that the other blog was published. Today, I quit my job.

This has been a long journey. I can't precisely explain all of it, but it all led to this decision. Somehow, I feel kind of bad, not because I'm leaving this place, but because of the people I'm leaving behind; my friends at work. And it's not because I'm leaving them without telling them about Christ, is it? Isn't that a real reason to feel bad?

The Backstory

I have been working as an analyst pathologist since September 2022, which was a blessing at one point. I held on so hard to this job because I thought, "Once a blessing, forever a blessing." I felt guilty about leaving. The Lord needed to change my mind about that. This was confirmed by a church member I was talking with; she spoke directly to my question without even knowing what the question was. That was last year.

Furthermore, I had a lot of issues at work, and the issues became more and more frequent. I loved the job at first. After 6 months, we moved to a new location. I started hating the place because it was messy and chaotic. Then I developed problems with chemicals (formalin) that gave me constant headaches. Many times, I asked the Lord to make it unbearable so I could leave the chemicals, and He definitely did, but I was still here. I kept trying to find another job before leaving, but that never happened. Then the headaches came, accompanied by ear pain and unbearable eye pain, but nobody could explain why.

Now, we are preparing to move again to a new location. I tried to hold on until I got another job. On January 9 this year, I applied for two jobs. I never heard back from one, and the other one has been busy for 3 months and still hasn't had time to look at my application. I also applied for another job at the end of February, but I haven't heard anything either. But the closer we got to the moving date, the more breakouts I got, until I realized this was too much. I can't keep dealing with this.

I Quit My Job

I asked the Lord to show me a sign on March 16 to know if He really wanted me to leave my job. I got the verse Matthew 6:19, so today, I quit. This verse spoke to me because i was treasuring my job above God.

"Lay, not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal."

I don't have my life figured out. I don't have a job, and I don't know when I will get one. The only thing I know is that I stepped out in faith, believing that God has something better. I have savings, but I don't know how long they will last. I did this because I'm convinced that the Lord wanted me to leave a long time ago. Because of the security of a job and money, I stayed longer than I should have.

April is a month of a lot of change, but with God, I will be OK. I held on for so long, hoping things would work out, but the situation only kept getting worse. I got tired of trying to fix everything on my own. So, I gave it to God and told Him, "I will do what You want. If You show me a sign that I need to leave, I will leave and never look back."

Before sending my resignation letter, I doubted the decision I was making. Once I sent it, I felt relieved. Not long after, doubts started flooding my mind: Did I make the right decision? When will I get a job? How long will I be able to survive without money? I don't know the answers to those questions, but I know God does.

Unwavering Faith

I'm not talking about this because I've already reached it, but because this is what the Lord wants for us. From March 17–19, I kept feeling like I needed to read John 3. I read it several times but still didn't understand what the Lord wanted to show me through it. Then today, a verse caught my attention and reminded me of another verse in the Bible.

In John 3, it speaks about people in the Spirit being like the wind. That reminded me of James 1:6–8, where people with wavering faith are compared to waves.

The Lord was clear. Without faith, it is impossible to please Him, because those who come to Him must believe that He is able to do what we ask.

He asks for unwavering faith, a faith that trusts even when we don't understand what will happen or how. He is our provider, and He cares for us more than anything in this world. Even when our prayers are not answered the way we hoped, HE LOVES YOU.

With this, I want to encourage all of you, including myself, to be honest with God about our struggles. Walking by faith is not easy, but only He can make it possible for us. That is why He left behind His Word and His promises for us to hold on to. Let us focus on God and not on our circumstances or our own understanding.

I pray that I can stay focused on God and not on my problems. When I pray asking for something, I can trust that the Lord is able to do it, even if He doesn't do it, I can still be OK with it. Let us not give up on God, because He does not give up on us!

Be blessed, and stay blessed.