I'm angry with life!

As a Christian, is it ok to be angry with life?

5) Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. 6) So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me. Hebrews 13:5-6

Today, at this precise moment, I don't feel like doing anything anymore. I want to avoid searching for a job because I'm tired! Every single door is closed; it's like searching in a Labyrinth. It feels like I'm trying my best for nothing. It's not only that, but I also have things I didn't pay for and need to figure out how to pay for them. All this makes me feel overwhelmed. I can say even I'm angry with God. That's why I'm completely angry with life and want to give up.

Do you know when you finally decided to stand up and trust the Lord? There comes someone to tell you how negative your life looks like? That you need to change your way of seeing life? Not in a negative way, but it's like pushing you back into that hole. That hole of fear, that hole of negativity, that hole of doubt. At that exact moment, it seems like God is not listening; meanwhile, I know He is always with me. But what should I do when it is too quiet? Do I need to walk away? Blame Him for every bad thing that is happening to me?

So, I was in the bathroom thinking, God, what should I do next? He told me to write this and publish it right away. I didn't feel like writing anything. Why should I write how angry and disappointed I am with life? Wouldn't that paint God badly? Why would He want me to write this? Anyway, I decided to write about how I feel.

While writing this, I see that I'm acting on how I feel. What I feel doesn't need to come in the things the Lord wants me to do. Even when it feels like I'm the one suffering through all this, it is all for my good. But how can you believe that? That all suffering or temptation is for the edification of your character. It is for the fortification of your faith. It's not about how you feel; It's about Him. Not saying that there is something wrong with having feelings, but letting your sense dominate you is wrong. We serve a God who knows everything, has good plans for us and loves us more than anyone. Focusing on our problems makes us lose our focus on the Lord.

Be focused, stay focused!