I keep starting again

I keep starting again!

I want to sew, play guitar, write a blog, sing and write songs, and so much more, but I'm not good enough. I keep coming back over and over again. I keep starting again!

Many things are holding me down. Not being good enough in any of them, no motivation might be the other one, no patience, and no consistency, but the big one is fear. Fear of not progressing, fear of not knowing how to start, or fear that I would never be able to be as good as others.

I started this blog in 2020, and after nearly five years of tuning up many things, such as SEO from all my older posts, nothing is working. I ask myself why I keep doing this and why my blog gets no traffic after so many years.

I look at videos of people who became successful with blogs, but I can't pinpoint why mine is going nowhere. I keep coming back because this is something that I believe that God wanted me to do. Returning to my old blog, I can see the ups and downs in my faith walk. I could also know I write more when closer to God.

To stay consistent, I need to stay closer to God. But it is so hard sometimes. I started everything because I believed that God wanted me to do it. Why do I keep doing this? Why do I keep coming back over and over again?

To become successful on social media, you need to be consistent, and I know I'm not. How can I keep coming up, even when things aren't going so well in my faith walk? I stay positive with what I'm getting in traffic on my blog, even though it is not enough. But because it is not moving fast enough, I doubt if it will become something one day.

I need to accept that my blog has been therapeutic for me. I started this blog to share my faith walk, which consists of struggles, doubt, fear, and mental health issues. This blog contributed so much to my mental health by just writing about my life and thoughts. I may need to stop focusing on success and see success in how my blog has helped me become mentally healthier.

There was a time when I was very negative about everything. Even though I'm in a positive mindset, I still linger on negativity. I hope my why can keep helping me show up for my blog and everything I want to do!

Be blessed, and stay blessed!