It feels like a test

I feel like the Lord is giving Satan a chance to test me. I pray I don't lose my cool about what is coming and pass it with flying colors.

Did you have a friend with whom you got along well, not as a best friend, but were you good with each other? Then something happened, and you talked out; she pretended everything was OK. Years later, she does worse than you did, and she starts to ignore you entirely, but still lies that everything is OK.

Well, I had that friend. I'm not going to tell you what the problem was, but we talked it out, and we even ended it with a hug. After that situation, I still felt like she was acting strange, so I asked her several times. Is everything OK between us? She keeps telling me yes, yes, yes. After a while, she completely changes and acts like she doesn't even see me. Blatantly ignores me and lies that she didn't see me on various occasions.

I'm cool if she doesn't want to deal with me anymore, but at least be honest about it. She keeps treating me like I'm the cause of all her problems and she is the victim, when the significant majority of all these problems that happened are because of her. But she seemed so sweet and innocent-looking that I looked like the problematic one. On top of that, she looks so happy, and her life seems perfect after all she has done. She is the only one who doesn't look affected at all.

Indeed, for the last 2 years, I've hated her with all my heart. I even felt like she was God's favorite because her life looked like it was in all that mess; she was so happy and blessed. She is why I wrote the blog " Don't lose your life in comparison," because it took me a while to get over the comparison with her life. I want nothing from her life, but she makes it look like her life is so good, and I'm the only one bothered by her fakeness.

It's not like I want to become her friend again, but I'm OK with just greeting because that is just manners; once she dares to greet me and make me look like the one who doesn't want to greet her.

The test begins in the new year, 2025. We are forming different departments at the church. So, I have been nominated as the leader, and she will be one of the people working under me. I'm expecting these 2 years to become he'll because of her, or a test that I can close that chapter with her and move on.

So, I pray for the strength to pass this with flying colors.

Be blessed, and stay blessed.